We are supposed to wait the full 9 days until we take a home pregnancy test, but most IVF moms just can't. At noon on 4 days after my transfer, or 4dp5dt, I took a HPT (home pregnancy test). To my surprise, so early on..... there was a faint line that could be seen in the natural light. A faint line meant I had HCG (human chorionic gonadotropin....the pregnancy hormone) in my body. This hormone in my system meant that I was PREGNANT. For the first time in my life. I kept praying to God hoping that this was it and that it was real. I was very excited but I was not going to get my hopes up until I tested the next day to compare the tests. I did a test that night as well and had another faint positive. On 5dp5dt I took a test at 0600; positive and a bit darker than yesterday. I took another two in the afternoon with the same result. I also decided to take a digital one in the afternoon on day 5 to really let everything sink in. When I took that test, it came up "Pregnant"...this was the moment I fell to the floor and cried, praising God. I was a mess. It was one of the most real moments in my entire life. I was the happiest most joyful mess you have ever seen. I was officially, fully believing and knowing that I was 100% pregnant. This embryo, our perfect embryo, had implanted and was making itself nice and cozy! I was in shock. For the first time in my life, I got to see that second line appear and I got to see the word "pregnant" appear on my test!
I decided that once Mitch came home I was going to surprise him with our biggest news ever. I had always dreamed of how I would tell him our news, and I knew what I was going to do for over a year now...and I got it all on tape! Essentially, Mitch and I for years, always remark at a man wearing sturdy white running shoes. We always say, "Yep, thats a dad right there," or "He defiantly has a baby on the way." We always saw those runners as a symbol of total dad mode and ready for anything. Maybe it's more of a 90s thing, I mean seriously, you have to admit your dad had a pair of white runners at some point! Anyways, I always knew I would wrap Mitch's white running shoes from college in a special box one day to surprise him. I knew he would know right away what they meant - his turn --> future daddy!
We were so happy. This was finally our moment, our year, our new Godly lineage. We can hardly wait to raise our children to know the ultimate creator who had their backs from before they were born. He planned for them, even before we did, loved on them, and taught me how to love on them before they were even ours. I am so blown away looking back at this whole journey and seeing God's active hand at work. He has prepared us, through the journey of infertility, to be the perfect parents for these babies. We are right where we need to be.
The big test will be this Friday which is my first Beta HCG blood test. This is the pregnancy blood test which will show where my HCG levels are at. They need to be above a certain point to show that the pregnancy will be viable. We are praying against a chemical pregnancy and praying that this guy stays with us for the long hall. An even bigger test after Friday will be a few days later where I go in for my second Beta test to ensure that the levels have doubled. They need to double to show that the pregnancy will remain viable and is heading in a "good direction". After that, we just pregnant away until our first ultrasound appointment at 7 weeks with our clinic. We will be able to see the heart beat then!
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